happy happy happy

i dont know, but small things in life make my life a much better place
itcan really put BIG SMILE on my face
i laugh on top of my voice for the stupidest joke
i never fail to smile.. at least once a day
i really do look happy dont i?
so cheer up people!!!
life is a great if you know how to enjoy it!~!~!~

wearing a tie dye and eat paddle pop, dont we look the same?

oh gosh, this is the BEST thing ever.. it's called bangkok apom.. try them!!! you really need to! eventho it is quite expensive, 4 for rm 1 i think but it's WORTH IT.. i can eat like rm5 in one shot..
but the sad thing is, the man who sells them always changes location, so hard to find la T_T

eating KFC with my class mates and just talk nonsense

piggy pau, eventho the filling not nice but its soooooooooo cute!!! ehehz

lots and lots and lots of chocolate during studying time

oh guess what are these?

they come from HERE~!~! ehehz.. this is sooooooo good too, plus the toy they give you.. it really brings back my childhood memory totally <3 this

sausages and meat balls with house mate? DEFINATELY!!! ehehz.. bonding time and strees releasing time.. XD

however, little things make me cry too ( no wonder they call me cry baby when i was young)
examples:
1)lionel's father got a new house in sungai ara and he is moving.. i just cant accept the fact that he is moving so far and it will take around 30 mins to go to each other's place.. haiz

2) some not very sad novel, but i will still cry

3) i will feel like crying if i havent cry for a few weeks

4) if i woke up later than i wanted too, i feel like i have wasted time sleeping.. (how stupid, but i dont cry la, i just feel sad)

5) when people around me are not happy.. i will feel why they must be sad.. i must be very bad in understanding one.. im sorry i will change aiks.. how can everyone be like how i want them to

6) after screaming at my bro, for not studying, not doing hos homework.. i will feel like why i need to do all this.. haiz

i dont know.. and the list goes on..
i have to admit that i am a cry baby..

a feeling i cant express!!!

i think it's obvious that you all know

MY EXAM IS OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i can say. woot woot woot!~!~ wooohoooooooooooooooooooooooo
woot woot woot woohooooo A THOUSAND TIMES!!!!

im so emotional right now..

the feeling, the feeling that you know you can do it! the feeling that you know you are going to be succesful~!!!!

IM OVERWHELM!!!!

exam is done. im pretty sure i pass my 1st year eventho results is not out yet!~!~!!!!!!!
COME ONE BABY, LETS ROCK!!!

hahahahha
~~~~~i got a feeling~ that tonight is goin to be a good night!!~!~ a good good night~!~!~!~~~~

another thing is i got the maxis scholarship! YES YES YES I DID!!!!
the interview was so fun, i didnt felt the stress and i think i did good... it was a teleconferencing as i was having exam..

it was on monday, when i just finished my MCBM 1 paper, anat and phy
(Dr Rajesh, see i dont classify them according to subject too anymore)
Maxis said they will call at 3 but i waited until 4.30 and they finally called, the hours before i was sitting in front of the computer, looking into Malaysia's history, the health system, the recent news so i dont make a fool out of myself..

ahahahha ok i lied, i only did that for 30 minutes.. the time from after exam to maxis calling, i spent most of it sleeping.. =P

anyway, the interview went really well.. and the question is (saying it with the slang of one of my lecturer)

do you agree that doctor is 25% knowledge and 75% humanity?

TOTALLY!!!! i totally agree.. i frequently ask myself, if i am capable of being a doctor?
grades are not everything.. i can have straight A's, i can be on the dean list for 5 years but hey.. am i BORN to be a doctor..if doctor is all about knowledge, the a well guided butcher can be a surgeon too?

can i handle a crying family that have just lost their beloved ones, can i tell a teenager that had unsafe sex and wants abortion that i cannot do the abortion for you and your life is ruin from today onwards! can i handle DEATH?? can i be emotionally detached from my patients... (yea i know ethics and sociology teaches you all this but it does not just some like this you know)

then he ask if i agree that Malaysia should follow the system in the United States- where we do a 4 years degree.. and then only enter a medical school..

AGAIN i totally agree.. i mean if i am a form 5 student, i would probably said HELL NO! WHAT??? only get to do my real degree after 4 years?? (i mean the science degree need not be 4 years...)

but hey now i have a total different thinking.. when you are a 1st year student of MBBS, you will question yourself over and over again.. hey being a doctor is not just anything.. it is not simple.. it is not a proffesion that you decide to be in a night... it takes a lot of guts, responsibilities and ssacrifice to be one..

i now think that i should be matured enough to think if i should do MBBS, i should have done a science degree, have fun, take the time and then decide if i want to be a doctor when im 21 years old or something.
NOBODY should be 17 to decide if they want to be a doctor


then the funniest part is when he asked, are you agreeing just because of the scholarship? ahhahaha

but thank you for giving me a chance to be interviewed bacause you have changed my life.. i now have a total different view on life, on being a doctor!

bottom of the story, read the attached letter!!~!~

Dear Yee Thean Sim,

Congratulations!

You’ve been selected among the thousands as one of the recipients of the Maxis Scholarship for Excellence Award for Undergraduate Programme.

We would like to give you a heartfelt

congratulation in attaining this prestigious scholarship after a series of rigorous evaluation and interviews.

We will be contacting you shortly in regards to this.

The Secretariat

Maxis Scholarship for Excellence

i am feeling sooooooooo good!~! it has been so long since i had tears of joy!!!

AIMST IS INFECTED!!! RUN!!!!!!!!

YES im not lying!

we have our very own H1N1 case already.. the girl went to USM for pharmaceutical conference and came back to Aimst with the virus..

but hey no worries.. around 10+ ppl are quarantined in their own hostel.. the canteen aunty have been sending food to them and they CANT COME OUT! you know the "10 perkara of house quarantine"

im just praying i dont get infected now as finals is in less than 2 weeks time!~!!~!~ oh God bless me...

so im just thinking if i have to be quarantine, i will die! i am serious! i cant be ties down eventhough being in Aimst is LIKE being quarantine in AIMST, but being quarantine in your own room IT SUCKS EVEN MORE!

but our Ass. Vice Chancellor, a very entau man says everything is under control. I will trust him.
(i tried looking for his photo online but failed.. so i give up) but HE IS REALLY GOOD LOOKING! so again im saying i trust him! *grin*


other than the H1N1 virus, our study area is also infected.. not with the virus of course but with these...over the few months i was studying there, i spotted these



and there is this type of insect that looks like sperm.. its really small.. i dont know what its called so no picture.. sorry!~!~

DIFFERENT?

yes definately! we are DEFINATELY DIFFERENT!

time have passed, you know well..you think i dont
time have passed, you have changed for me, you think i have not

i secretly think i do...

can 2 different people be together for long?
will we only realize that this will not work after 10 years being together?
we are two,will we never change to be one?
sometimes i think i will cross the ocean for you, bring you the moon, i want to be your hero, your strength your everything but will our different personalities allow me?

everyone has a different perception of love
MINE: i think it's the feeling, the feeling that tells you this man is who you need. you cant on without him, you need him to talk to, you need him to share you happiness, your sadness, the person you call YOUR PERSON.

of course love comes with sacrifice, if he doesn't not like, does that mean you have to hate it too?
if he wants you to do that something, does that mean you have to do it?

i have to say, sometimes it's a no.. im sorry but this doesn't mean i dont love you

failure.......... T_T

I have applied a few scholarship, those really keng one that can really help support my education. I just dont want to burden my dad and I dont really think he can pay for all the tuition fees and the hostel fees and everything

Yayasan TAR, after the 1st interview I have failed..

Saudara/saudari,

Dengan hormatnya saya merujuk perkara di atas dan temuduga awal yang telah diadakan.

Dukacita dimaklumkan permohonan anda tidak berjaya. Saya ucapkan selamat maju jaya dalam bidang pengajian anda seterusnya.

Sekian, terima kasih.

YAYASAN TUNKU ABDUL RAHMAN

Honda, it's been so long and still no news so i guess it's a failure too


Maxis, no news too.. haiz

i know it's wrong to have hope and all, but who dont? when my friend asked me, did you get the call? i was no.. another friend ask "did you get the mail?" ooopsss.. NO again.. my heart really aches.. it's feeling you get that when you really need help.. nothing can help you! NOBODY! nobody to lean on...

I know it's going to sound all stupid and all because I seem to live a good life.. nice clothes, a room to myself, a house and alot more. Like I've said, I rather use my own money or the money I earn from scholarship to pay my own education. I rather have the money prepared and not worry everytime time a new term starts... to ask my dad for the large sum of money again. It still money anyways.

I guess all I can do now is to study harder and pray harder! How I wish I could be those people that never need to worry about money! Money IS everything after all..

my really young dad

guess how old he is when he took this photo?

haha, he's not that young after all.. just the editing made him look so young.. me and sis and bro really had a great laugh
he's so gonna kill me if he sees this

me being stupid

i guess this is really stupid.. to update your blog after sooooooooooooo long... hahahahhaha
but it's ok la dont care..

movies movies weekend!~!~

watch 2 movies the may 1st weekend.. on fri may 1st it was


thought it didn't have enough action, still preferred the previous 3.. why i remembered, cause the week after that.. me and coleen catch up with the X-men trilogy.. IT was AWESOME! much better than the current one.. i really love X-men esp. wolverine.. oh hotness

then on Sunday, it was

haha, bi la.. wanted to watch this apparently REALLY COOL movie.. ahahahahaha it was "awesome" too.. haha it is about this girl who is actually a serpent that fell in love with a normal human. Alot of people are actually hunting the girl down.. so alot of conflict then in the end the girl became a BIG BIG serpent.. hahahaahha

Picnic..

this has been so long, i could not blog about it because i dont have the pictures

but over all, it was great.. it was a rush decision, i have planned it.. but he didn't want to go at 1st because he don't know what I had in mind.. i wanted it to be a surprise but he insisted to know.. so I have got no reason to say no

I told him.. then in the morning we went to shop for shop hams and bread to make sandwiches, some drinks and chips and off we go!

Botanical garden was a great place.. we went there around 4.. it wasn't really hot and we brought some old newspaper, lie it down and set up the snacks we brought, and enjoyed!~!~ the place was really nice, i discovered this place during our form5 cross country, when me and friends we skipped the whole closing ceremony and went for a walk.. the place was cooling and just great to sit and talk and enjoy each others company..
the only picture i have for the day.. XD

then later at night we went for movie.. *view next post*

spot the ghost

hahahahahhahahha, i cant stop laughing at this one girl...
ok i know im mean, looking at other ppl's blog and talking bout them
but sometimes you just cant help it

U SERIOUSLY CANT

ooopssss.... im a meanie..

anyways to continue, it just crossed my mine, why do kids wanna look like adults and adults wanting to look like kids? i mean, dress your age. i see form 4 students dressing like 20's and all..

but maybe im jealour cause i didnt look that pretty back then...

try looking into any high schooler blog and they can really dress.. like rajesh (my lecturer) said D2K.. dress to kill aiks~!~!

hairstyle??!?!?

i realised i have changed quite a number of hairstyle in just a few short years!~!~ XD

look at it...short (so ugly) ahhahahahalongerlongestback to shortthe BOB! no boblonger with straight bangslonger with lambda bang
NOW!~!~! curly curlszzZzZZZzz

1-2-3-4

<3 you 2
this song is very sweet, eventho the words are simple and it tells me that simple things can be really awesome at times too!!
thank you <3 for the song

campus oh campus!!~!

1st day in campus, feel so lazy..
when in class also feel like just wanna go home
miss him
darn... bad timing
didnt do really well in exam.. 2 results out...but im not satisfied..
guess gotta push myself more!~!~! I CANT BE SLACKING!

ok.. other than sad stuff... of course come back to campus then wanna go out d o..
went out with my roommate~coleen the loud, annie the skinny and deep the only black... XD
went for dinner, malay food still full till now! ARHGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

better rest and charge for tmr's classsssssss.....

leaving my footprints...

E&O

so after a whole loooooooooooooooooooooooooooong week of fever, and tasteless food.. BLAND food..
anything but cream crackers, milo, porridge and soup based thingie...

so on sunday, lino brought me to E&O for his dad's company lunch... XD
here comes the BIG BIG BIG smile.. muakz!~!~!

Such a pretty place wanna take more picture but came with lino's parents so couldnt.. T_T

this is great!!! croissant with chocolate!!! XD

<3s>

entertainment in the hospital

ehehz... lino bought me a monkey soft toy to 'take care' of me.. T_T i named it banana!~!~! XD

of course the nurse also gave me some prezzie... 4 jabs! T_T

then the last day, comes the monopoly!~!~!

it was really fun, sumore got credit card wan this new edition of monopoly

home sweet home

to everyone out there...
IM HOME!~!~!~!

im just glad to be home.. =)

(p.s therefore not goin back to aimst yet, taking another day off)

hospital visits

lots of ppl came and visit, 1st person i said no to, the next minute i saw she was right by my bed looking at my ugly face...and not alone, she brought along gino and michelle.. T_T

it's not anything about hospital visits, but you know that a sick looking(maybe not) tired looking person dont like to be looked at.. I was so UGLY

on thursday night, like i have said, suzzanna and gino and michelle came over... so just chat.. then look into online shopping and stuff.. gino was bored like hell...
suprise suprise...chin hong came by and we continued talking.. hahahhaa.. guess we were they noisiest room ever and not forgetting the auntie beside me.. whose snoring away
(ch INSIST in taking pictures even i told her i am so ugly!!!)

on friday, lionel brought along play date.. haha.. melven and he brought his monopoly... monopoly the whole afternoon and they both went back.. mok came aroung with minsan again at night and there goes another round of monopoly

those who didnt come, it's ok.. it's better that you all din see my ugly face.. i know you all care for me!! thanks alot girls and guys.. was really touched

most of all.. i just want to share my 'xinfu-ness' with you all... i have in my life, 2 greatest men.

MY DAD

MY LINO

no need explanation.. it's self explained... i am nothing without you both.. I LOVE YOU BOTH!~!~!!~!~

Damn IT!

another day in the hospital.. the doctor still dont want to discharge me!
some more dare to say wanna keep me for 5 DAYS!!!!!
with the bargain.. today is 3rd day meaning last if only urine test will come out normal... T_T

GOD BLESS SIM!

let's get it started

haha, hope this will stay..

guess where am i now?
in the hospital, its 5am, cant sleep.. SO NOT ME!
the auntie beside of me is snoring like nobody's business..
sien lo... so i online and decided it's time to start to blog...
but got nth much to say.. just lau sai finish

Oh i just realise, not only anutie snore, anutie's son also SNORE! phew.. somebody save me...

oh, im so hnugry la now..i think i should eat some crackers.. (grabbing some crackers)

so far, i have only read lynn's and chin hong's blog... you all have to keep me updated wei... send me links can..

ok la guess thats it for my 1st post!~!~ XD