happy happy happy

i dont know, but small things in life make my life a much better place
itcan really put BIG SMILE on my face
i laugh on top of my voice for the stupidest joke
i never fail to smile.. at least once a day
i really do look happy dont i?
so cheer up people!!!
life is a great if you know how to enjoy it!~!~!~

wearing a tie dye and eat paddle pop, dont we look the same?

oh gosh, this is the BEST thing ever.. it's called bangkok apom.. try them!!! you really need to! eventho it is quite expensive, 4 for rm 1 i think but it's WORTH IT.. i can eat like rm5 in one shot..
but the sad thing is, the man who sells them always changes location, so hard to find la T_T

eating KFC with my class mates and just talk nonsense

piggy pau, eventho the filling not nice but its soooooooooo cute!!! ehehz

lots and lots and lots of chocolate during studying time

oh guess what are these?

they come from HERE~!~! ehehz.. this is sooooooo good too, plus the toy they give you.. it really brings back my childhood memory totally <3 this

sausages and meat balls with house mate? DEFINATELY!!! ehehz.. bonding time and strees releasing time.. XD

however, little things make me cry too ( no wonder they call me cry baby when i was young)
examples:
1)lionel's father got a new house in sungai ara and he is moving.. i just cant accept the fact that he is moving so far and it will take around 30 mins to go to each other's place.. haiz

2) some not very sad novel, but i will still cry

3) i will feel like crying if i havent cry for a few weeks

4) if i woke up later than i wanted too, i feel like i have wasted time sleeping.. (how stupid, but i dont cry la, i just feel sad)

5) when people around me are not happy.. i will feel why they must be sad.. i must be very bad in understanding one.. im sorry i will change aiks.. how can everyone be like how i want them to

6) after screaming at my bro, for not studying, not doing hos homework.. i will feel like why i need to do all this.. haiz

i dont know.. and the list goes on..
i have to admit that i am a cry baby..

a feeling i cant express!!!

i think it's obvious that you all know

MY EXAM IS OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i can say. woot woot woot!~!~ wooohoooooooooooooooooooooooo
woot woot woot woohooooo A THOUSAND TIMES!!!!

im so emotional right now..

the feeling, the feeling that you know you can do it! the feeling that you know you are going to be succesful~!!!!

IM OVERWHELM!!!!

exam is done. im pretty sure i pass my 1st year eventho results is not out yet!~!~!!!!!!!
COME ONE BABY, LETS ROCK!!!

hahahahha
~~~~~i got a feeling~ that tonight is goin to be a good night!!~!~ a good good night~!~!~!~~~~

another thing is i got the maxis scholarship! YES YES YES I DID!!!!
the interview was so fun, i didnt felt the stress and i think i did good... it was a teleconferencing as i was having exam..

it was on monday, when i just finished my MCBM 1 paper, anat and phy
(Dr Rajesh, see i dont classify them according to subject too anymore)
Maxis said they will call at 3 but i waited until 4.30 and they finally called, the hours before i was sitting in front of the computer, looking into Malaysia's history, the health system, the recent news so i dont make a fool out of myself..

ahahahha ok i lied, i only did that for 30 minutes.. the time from after exam to maxis calling, i spent most of it sleeping.. =P

anyway, the interview went really well.. and the question is (saying it with the slang of one of my lecturer)

do you agree that doctor is 25% knowledge and 75% humanity?

TOTALLY!!!! i totally agree.. i frequently ask myself, if i am capable of being a doctor?
grades are not everything.. i can have straight A's, i can be on the dean list for 5 years but hey.. am i BORN to be a doctor..if doctor is all about knowledge, the a well guided butcher can be a surgeon too?

can i handle a crying family that have just lost their beloved ones, can i tell a teenager that had unsafe sex and wants abortion that i cannot do the abortion for you and your life is ruin from today onwards! can i handle DEATH?? can i be emotionally detached from my patients... (yea i know ethics and sociology teaches you all this but it does not just some like this you know)

then he ask if i agree that Malaysia should follow the system in the United States- where we do a 4 years degree.. and then only enter a medical school..

AGAIN i totally agree.. i mean if i am a form 5 student, i would probably said HELL NO! WHAT??? only get to do my real degree after 4 years?? (i mean the science degree need not be 4 years...)

but hey now i have a total different thinking.. when you are a 1st year student of MBBS, you will question yourself over and over again.. hey being a doctor is not just anything.. it is not simple.. it is not a proffesion that you decide to be in a night... it takes a lot of guts, responsibilities and ssacrifice to be one..

i now think that i should be matured enough to think if i should do MBBS, i should have done a science degree, have fun, take the time and then decide if i want to be a doctor when im 21 years old or something.
NOBODY should be 17 to decide if they want to be a doctor


then the funniest part is when he asked, are you agreeing just because of the scholarship? ahhahaha

but thank you for giving me a chance to be interviewed bacause you have changed my life.. i now have a total different view on life, on being a doctor!

bottom of the story, read the attached letter!!~!~

Dear Yee Thean Sim,

Congratulations!

You’ve been selected among the thousands as one of the recipients of the Maxis Scholarship for Excellence Award for Undergraduate Programme.

We would like to give you a heartfelt

congratulation in attaining this prestigious scholarship after a series of rigorous evaluation and interviews.

We will be contacting you shortly in regards to this.

The Secretariat

Maxis Scholarship for Excellence

i am feeling sooooooooo good!~! it has been so long since i had tears of joy!!!

AIMST IS INFECTED!!! RUN!!!!!!!!

YES im not lying!

we have our very own H1N1 case already.. the girl went to USM for pharmaceutical conference and came back to Aimst with the virus..

but hey no worries.. around 10+ ppl are quarantined in their own hostel.. the canteen aunty have been sending food to them and they CANT COME OUT! you know the "10 perkara of house quarantine"

im just praying i dont get infected now as finals is in less than 2 weeks time!~!!~!~ oh God bless me...

so im just thinking if i have to be quarantine, i will die! i am serious! i cant be ties down eventhough being in Aimst is LIKE being quarantine in AIMST, but being quarantine in your own room IT SUCKS EVEN MORE!

but our Ass. Vice Chancellor, a very entau man says everything is under control. I will trust him.
(i tried looking for his photo online but failed.. so i give up) but HE IS REALLY GOOD LOOKING! so again im saying i trust him! *grin*


other than the H1N1 virus, our study area is also infected.. not with the virus of course but with these...over the few months i was studying there, i spotted these



and there is this type of insect that looks like sperm.. its really small.. i dont know what its called so no picture.. sorry!~!~

DIFFERENT?

yes definately! we are DEFINATELY DIFFERENT!

time have passed, you know well..you think i dont
time have passed, you have changed for me, you think i have not

i secretly think i do...

can 2 different people be together for long?
will we only realize that this will not work after 10 years being together?
we are two,will we never change to be one?
sometimes i think i will cross the ocean for you, bring you the moon, i want to be your hero, your strength your everything but will our different personalities allow me?

everyone has a different perception of love
MINE: i think it's the feeling, the feeling that tells you this man is who you need. you cant on without him, you need him to talk to, you need him to share you happiness, your sadness, the person you call YOUR PERSON.

of course love comes with sacrifice, if he doesn't not like, does that mean you have to hate it too?
if he wants you to do that something, does that mean you have to do it?

i have to say, sometimes it's a no.. im sorry but this doesn't mean i dont love you

failure.......... T_T

I have applied a few scholarship, those really keng one that can really help support my education. I just dont want to burden my dad and I dont really think he can pay for all the tuition fees and the hostel fees and everything

Yayasan TAR, after the 1st interview I have failed..

Saudara/saudari,

Dengan hormatnya saya merujuk perkara di atas dan temuduga awal yang telah diadakan.

Dukacita dimaklumkan permohonan anda tidak berjaya. Saya ucapkan selamat maju jaya dalam bidang pengajian anda seterusnya.

Sekian, terima kasih.

YAYASAN TUNKU ABDUL RAHMAN

Honda, it's been so long and still no news so i guess it's a failure too


Maxis, no news too.. haiz

i know it's wrong to have hope and all, but who dont? when my friend asked me, did you get the call? i was no.. another friend ask "did you get the mail?" ooopsss.. NO again.. my heart really aches.. it's feeling you get that when you really need help.. nothing can help you! NOBODY! nobody to lean on...

I know it's going to sound all stupid and all because I seem to live a good life.. nice clothes, a room to myself, a house and alot more. Like I've said, I rather use my own money or the money I earn from scholarship to pay my own education. I rather have the money prepared and not worry everytime time a new term starts... to ask my dad for the large sum of money again. It still money anyways.

I guess all I can do now is to study harder and pray harder! How I wish I could be those people that never need to worry about money! Money IS everything after all..

my really young dad

guess how old he is when he took this photo?

haha, he's not that young after all.. just the editing made him look so young.. me and sis and bro really had a great laugh
he's so gonna kill me if he sees this

me being stupid

i guess this is really stupid.. to update your blog after sooooooooooooo long... hahahahhaha
but it's ok la dont care..