a feeling i cant express!!!

i think it's obvious that you all know

MY EXAM IS OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i can say. woot woot woot!~!~ wooohoooooooooooooooooooooooo
woot woot woot woohooooo A THOUSAND TIMES!!!!

im so emotional right now..

the feeling, the feeling that you know you can do it! the feeling that you know you are going to be succesful~!!!!

IM OVERWHELM!!!!

exam is done. im pretty sure i pass my 1st year eventho results is not out yet!~!~!!!!!!!
COME ONE BABY, LETS ROCK!!!

hahahahha
~~~~~i got a feeling~ that tonight is goin to be a good night!!~!~ a good good night~!~!~!~~~~

another thing is i got the maxis scholarship! YES YES YES I DID!!!!
the interview was so fun, i didnt felt the stress and i think i did good... it was a teleconferencing as i was having exam..

it was on monday, when i just finished my MCBM 1 paper, anat and phy
(Dr Rajesh, see i dont classify them according to subject too anymore)
Maxis said they will call at 3 but i waited until 4.30 and they finally called, the hours before i was sitting in front of the computer, looking into Malaysia's history, the health system, the recent news so i dont make a fool out of myself..

ahahahha ok i lied, i only did that for 30 minutes.. the time from after exam to maxis calling, i spent most of it sleeping.. =P

anyway, the interview went really well.. and the question is (saying it with the slang of one of my lecturer)

do you agree that doctor is 25% knowledge and 75% humanity?

TOTALLY!!!! i totally agree.. i frequently ask myself, if i am capable of being a doctor?
grades are not everything.. i can have straight A's, i can be on the dean list for 5 years but hey.. am i BORN to be a doctor..if doctor is all about knowledge, the a well guided butcher can be a surgeon too?

can i handle a crying family that have just lost their beloved ones, can i tell a teenager that had unsafe sex and wants abortion that i cannot do the abortion for you and your life is ruin from today onwards! can i handle DEATH?? can i be emotionally detached from my patients... (yea i know ethics and sociology teaches you all this but it does not just some like this you know)

then he ask if i agree that Malaysia should follow the system in the United States- where we do a 4 years degree.. and then only enter a medical school..

AGAIN i totally agree.. i mean if i am a form 5 student, i would probably said HELL NO! WHAT??? only get to do my real degree after 4 years?? (i mean the science degree need not be 4 years...)

but hey now i have a total different thinking.. when you are a 1st year student of MBBS, you will question yourself over and over again.. hey being a doctor is not just anything.. it is not simple.. it is not a proffesion that you decide to be in a night... it takes a lot of guts, responsibilities and ssacrifice to be one..

i now think that i should be matured enough to think if i should do MBBS, i should have done a science degree, have fun, take the time and then decide if i want to be a doctor when im 21 years old or something.
NOBODY should be 17 to decide if they want to be a doctor


then the funniest part is when he asked, are you agreeing just because of the scholarship? ahhahaha

but thank you for giving me a chance to be interviewed bacause you have changed my life.. i now have a total different view on life, on being a doctor!

bottom of the story, read the attached letter!!~!~

Dear Yee Thean Sim,

Congratulations!

You’ve been selected among the thousands as one of the recipients of the Maxis Scholarship for Excellence Award for Undergraduate Programme.

We would like to give you a heartfelt

congratulation in attaining this prestigious scholarship after a series of rigorous evaluation and interviews.

We will be contacting you shortly in regards to this.

The Secretariat

Maxis Scholarship for Excellence

i am feeling sooooooooo good!~! it has been so long since i had tears of joy!!!